Hello, my beloved, xxx!
I got to Astana without any problems. I'm writing this letter from an internet cafe. This is not the best connection and I hope that you will receive my letter without delay.
Please do not be shocked, but I think we need to stop communication. This is a very unpleasant and painful decision for me. I do not want you to suffer. You have become very dear to me, but I see no other way out of this situation. Circumstances force me to make such a decision.
I have a problem, not deciding which, I can not fly to you. It's about a small amount of money. I'm ashamed to ask for your financial support.
I tried to solve the problem myself, but I can not.
I think you will refuse to help me. I'm afraid that you will blame me, and your trust in me will fade. I do not want to hear screams and insults from a person to whom I have warm, love feelings. My heart will be broken.
I'm completely confused. I was left alone, in an absolutely unfamiliar city for me. I tried to ask for help from my friends. Unfortunately, they can not help me. My friends are not rich people.
My hands are shaking and my voice is trembling. I have tears in my eyes. I keep believing that you will not leave me in a difficult moment.
You are a wonderful man, we have built huge plans for our future together. Is it all going to collapse in just a moment? I do not want to, and I will not believe in it. Always need to leave a positive hope. I know that, no matter what, we will be together. I love you, xxx! I can not describe my feelings for you in words. With me this is the first time. I'm sure that we are made for each other!
I want to be with you in real life. Now, all under the threat of failure and I'm very upset. Probably, that I was so stupid, thinking that I became the happiest woman in this huge world. Know that you are the best! I will keep our love in my heart.
Please contact me. It is very important for me to know your thoughts.
Your love,
Raikhan.