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Thank you for your letter. How are you doing? I hope everything is fine and you are in a great mood! And the fact that you answered my letter makes me understand that you are just as lonely. That you also would like to have fellowship. That you would like to know me. And most importantly, you're interested. Me too. I'll even say that I'm very curious to know you. And I hope that we will find much in common between us.
I thought about what I can write in the letter. What can I tell about myself about my life! But my thoughts are empty. I did not think it was so difficult. For me it's the first time, to communicate with a man I do not know. And use the Internet and computer for this communication.
Especially, the technique and I, we are not best friends. But it's very convenient. And many use cell phones, and the Internet is free. But I'm not one of those people. Since I do not have a phone, my daughter writes me letters. And this is our only connection with each other. Therefore, I had to undergo an "accelerated" course in computer studies. (smile). More precisely, when my daughter was visiting me with her husband, they had to teach me how to use a computer. It was very funny. I'm sure that you are much better at handling all the equipment.
And based on this, I think that you will want me to use different programs, and many other things that would allow you to make sure of my reality. But I cannot give you this. Sorry. And if this is a problem for you, and you will not want to communicate with me, then I will understand everything. In our time it is difficult to believe only words and photos. Even it's hard to believe those you see with your own eyes.
But I can only give you letters, my communication, and of course friendship. And I hope that at this stage it will be enough for you to continue to communicate with me.
As you already understood, I live in a quiet place, a small village. And I work in the city of Povarnya, which is near. I work as a salesman in a children's toys store, and clothes.
I hope that you understand my words correctly. Because I use an interpreter to write letters to you. Therefore, I am very worried, and immediately ask to excuse me, if you see many mistakes in my letter. I think that will make you smile. I want to believe that this will not be a problem for our communication! And you understand me correctly on the whole.
And now I must tell you about myself again. To make you better represent me.
3-4 times a week, I run not far from home. I love running. It helps to free the mind and thoughts. I already said that I do not smoke! I used to smoke. It's hard when you bring up one child, and I thought that cigarettes help me relax. But I was wrong. I decided to quit smoking and take care of myself. 5 years ago I weighed almost 65 kilograms. But I decided to change my life, and my body. Yes, I like sport. But I'm not a fan.
Agree, we always want to please, and first of all ourselves.
Often I go to nature, to hikes. However, I do it without spending the night, one is very scary. And so I leave early, and I come home after sunset. In nature, I cook myself meat on fire, or I'm already taking a ready dinner, and breakfast. Sometimes my friends and acquaintances go with me. I especially like to walk in the warmer days of August. This is the most beautiful time, when there are billions of stars in the sky, and many flying (falling) stars. These are just magical nights. Do you like to spend time outdoors?
And on the basis of this you probably already realized that I'm a romantic. Yes, I do not hide it. And even despite my age, I believe in miracles. Because it's so much more pleasant to live and believe that everything will be fine.
And by the volume of my letters, you probably realized that I like to write a lot, write everything so that you can understand me better. But I do not want these letters to take up too much of your time. And so, probably I already need to finish my letter today!
And in the end I want to tell you that you know that I do not have any insidious whole. Or something similar. I'm not trying to escape from my country. Or ask for anything from you. I do not want to hurt anyone. Or give false feelings. I just want to be happy. Have a friend with whom I could talk. And share my life. The same lonely. Who fully understands me. Who also tries to be happy in this world, and does not feel lonely.
I hope that you will be glad to see my letter again. And I also hope that you will answer me soon.
And I will be happy to know more about you. Please tell me about your day, about your life. What do you like to do and what not. Believe me, I want to be your friend, whom you can trust. And do not be afraid to say what you feel.
Have a nice day.
Maria

I admit! I'm glad to see your letter. And I hope that you are also glad to see my letters. And forgive me for having to wait for my answer. Believe me, work, vanity, and other urgent matters make me answer the body only when I can do it. But I'll try to fix it. I promise.
Your words have an interest in me. There is heat. And to hear compliments, very nice to me. True. Let these be just letters, but these letters can create something more. Maybe!
You talked about yourself, your life. I also told you about my life without hiding it. About the daughter. That I lost my husband when a drunk driver drove into his car. The husband was killed, and the man was given only 4 years in prison. 4 years for murder! Because I believe that if you drank a lot, and got behind the wheel of the car, and then hit a man and killed him. Then this is murder, the present. And you should get what you deserve. But this is already my past life. I can not change anything. Yes, it was difficult, but I managed it. I was able to raise a daughter, I was able to live on. But since then I'm afraid of cars, especially those that drive very fast. And the man, because of which my husband died, deprived me of all that I had. But for years, I forgave him.
My life does not have much joy. (Smile). That's probably why I see this world not like many people. And I appreciate other values, not money, gold or diamonds. When I said that I was lonely, I meant that I no longer have anyone. Only me and my daughter. This is my whole family. These are all my friends. And this is all that I have the most precious.
I never knew the warmth and care of my parents. I never knew what gifts are (smile). Its past, I do not like to remember. To admit, it's sad, and ... it hurts. And therefore, I try to appreciate the present, not thinking about the past. And I believe in a happy future (smile).
When my husband died, I did everything not to "break." I tried to be strong. I was afraid that if I broke down, I could lose my daughter. And that she will experience what I experienced in my life. That pain, that "cold". That past life, which I will not wish anyone.
The reason for the fear of losing a daughter is that I do not remember much of my parents. I was taken away from them when I was 7 years old. I remember only the house in which we lived. In winter it is very cold, and in summer, it is very wet. This raw smell of mold on the walls, forever remained in my memory. I remember how I dreamed of eating, just to eat.
I remember how my parents swore, and I was hiding under the table, or in the closet. And I'm happy that they did not sell me for 2-3 bottles of alcohol to anyone else. Or worse. Perhaps on this, I do not like alcohol (smile)
I was glad when they took me away from them. Neighbor turned to the police because of the loud noise. And when the police saw me, my parents, the conditions of my life, they immediately took me to the police station. And then I got into an orphanage. At first I did not feel sad for them. But then, I still missed it. I think, even before our birth, in the belly of the mother, we have a love for parents. And no matter what they are. Good or evil. We still love them! And I had a desire to find out how they live. I believed that they would improve, and that they would come for me, with toys.
But they chose their own way. I found out that they had died. A few months after I was taken to an orphanage. They burned down with our house. I admit, I did not want this fate for them. They could change. could return me. But apparently they did not need me.
It's very difficult to live in an orphanage. But I remember the first time I ate (Smile). I hid bread, and I was afraid that if they found him, they scolded me. And when one day he was found under my pillow, I was ready for anything. (smile). But the tutor took me to the kitchen, and fed me again. And after that I helped cook cooks. I guess since then I have a love for cooking.
After studying, when I was 18 years old, I lived for some time in the city of Ufa. There was practice, and there I met my late husband. He was 18 years older than me. But it so happened that we began to meet. Have undersigned, we had a daughter, we moved to him. After his parents, he had a house, and we lived where I now live. And then he died.
It was really hard for me. But I did not give up. And as you already understood, I did everything so that my daughter never knew, the past that I lived.
Sorry. I so "threw" on you. I just said, I do not have many friends with whom I could talk. And here you are, I am writing you letters. And I think you should know about me. Understand that I'm real. And that I have no secrets (Smile).
Frankly, I do not even know my real birthday (Smile). My parents did not have any documents for me, and the day I was born. And only in the orphanage, I had my birthday (smile), and this is October 8th. Imagine, 7 years to live without a birthday (Smile)?
And you know, for some reason I'm not afraid to tell you about everything. Probably because you are far away (smile). And I can share my life with you.
Yes, of course, maybe I did not need to tell this. But if you do not know the past of man, you will not know him! Do you agree with this?
Thank you for having me. True. I am very pleased that I can talk to you. Communicate with you. Share everything.
You know, I understand that you probably did not expect such a letter from me. And I had to tell the other (smile). For example, a favorite color, or a movie I like to watch. But it seems to me that this is not so important. After all, if my favorite color is red, can this be a problem in our communication? Or the fact that I like to watch only Russian movies, or that I'm reading books that maybe you do not like can interfere with our communication? I want to believe that no. Moreover, such things will not say much about me! And they will not give in the letter what I experienced and what I am real.
I think that communication, trust, knowledge, is exactly what kind of person. What is his past, what is his present. This is what we are - people. (smile). And the color, or the film, or even the size of the shoes, is not so important for communication! Or am I wrong? (smile).
And you know, I can reveal one more secret to you. As we have already understood, we are not children. (Smile). And I will not be afraid to say that I have not had a man for many years. (smile). True. I mean, I did not have a "close" contact (smile). God, I feel like I'm 19 years old. I guess I blushed.
Well, another mystery was revealed. And when you were close to a woman for the last time?
Is intimacy important in relation? Or are you important to other qualities in a woman? Do you dream of having children? I understand that this is a very stupid question.
Well, I'm finishing my letter again. And again I expect an answer from you. Today, my letter without photos. But I'll send you next time. I promise.
Kisses
Maria

A lot of work, the news that I will become a grandmother, allowed me to relax a lot. Please do not think anything, I just drank some wine. A few glasses. I had to relax, and make a small celebration for myself. I'm sure you would have done the same.
I do not like to drink alcohol, and I do it only when there is a big event. I think that this is a great event. I will become a grandmother !!! And thanks that you were happy for me. Especially, except for you, no one knows this news yet. And if in truth, then tell me about this almost no one. You know, I'm alone.

You know xxx. We have known each other so little. But we know a lot about each other. It's nice that you opened up to me. It's nice that you're not afraid to tell me your thoughts. Talk about your past, about your problems. And most importantly, it's nice that you wait for my letters (a smile). I appreciate it very much. True.
I'm very pleased to know that you like me. As a woman! And most importantly, you like my letters. My thoughts. And maybe I'm wrong, but we are very similar. We see the world as it is. We appreciate what is much more important than material wealth. Family, friends, our life, the time that we have. The time that we have left (Smile). And despite all the difficulties that we have, problems, we try to believe in good. Believe that tomorrow will be a new day. That tomorrow we will wake up, and everything will be fine. Let not always, but we try to smile. Just smile.
You know that I live this way. I sometimes behave like a child (smile). And I try not to think about the bad. I try not to think about problems. Of course they are. But if all my life I think only about problems, and solve them, then where is the time to live? Enjoying life? When to enjoy the wind or the sky. The stars, and the bright moon? We live only once. Also it would be desirable to live this life so that about what not to regret. Well, or live like others, do not understand the joy, do not understand the values, do not understand the essence of this life.
Tell me, is there something that you have long dreamed of, but did not dare to do it? Let's say go to the mountains. Or to jump from a parachute. Or take and change your life. One day. Go for a walk on another route. Buy sweets, and eat them. Do not be afraid to change your life, do not be afraid to make a mistake. Or make the right choice.
Believe me, I live this way. I'm not afraid, I'm not shy, and if I want to change my life, then I can do it. Because I want to - live. And enjoy every day.
We made many mistakes. It was painful for us. We were hurt. But we are here. We are alive, there is a smile on our face (smile !!!!). And I'm sure that everything will be fine. You just have to believe it. You just need to want it. And most importantly, do not be afraid to do what we want. And change my life the way we want.
But this is only my opinion, of course, your life is your life. And I can not be 100 certain that you could change anything. Maybe everything suits you, you all like. And this is good. But you write me letters? You communicate with me! And this already means that you have changed your day, your life. And I hope that these changes bring you only joy.
And you know, I have one dream now. it's funny, but I'd like to see you when I meet you. True. talk about everything. About important or simple. About ridiculous and sad. To speak, and not to be afraid of words. Because I know that you understand me. And you know that I will understand you. That you are just as simple a person as I am. And we even have something similar. Yes, we have differences, they are not small. But I believe that these are trifles that will be in any relationship. Even a brother and sister, always have different thoughts and views on life. And about us and you can say that we are from different "planets". But this is the interest! Cognition! Recognize each other better.
And what are your dreams? Of course, besides having a woman near your heart! Because I also dream about it, you know (smile). Only not a woman, but a man next to me. (smile).
Why do you live in another country? Why do not you live in at least another city (smile). I would leave everything and come to you just to see you. To talk to you (smile).
I already told you why I'm alone. And you know, I could say that being alone is not so bad. And I think that you will agree. But when with you there are those who love you. When my daughter lived with me, I was not alone. We were always with her. She told me everything. And I always supported her. But when she went to another country. Only then, I knew real loneliness. Then it became very "cold" for me.
Okay, enough to dream. I think you need to finish my letter. I wish you a nice day.
I kiss and hug.
Maria

How do you? How are you? I am fine. Nice weather. And the fact that I had a lot of work, I still have a lot of energy, and a good mood. And on my face a smile, and I think that you already understood it from the photo.
I've been waiting for your letter. I wanted to know your opinion of love. And just enjoy your words. Your thoughts. Your letter. I said that if we write more often, then there will be a "dependence". But you know, I think she already appeared (a smile). Just like you! And every time I wait for your letter. Of course, I do not answer you so quickly (Smile). But I hope. To fix this!
And as I said, xxx, I have very warm feelings for you. I like you, I like how you think, how you look at this world, this life. And most importantly, how do you treat me. And I hope ... (smile). I dream that in the future, we can get something more than friendship. But do not hurry! Do you agree? Let everything go as it was before, and we will just enjoy the letters. And what will be between us, time will tell, and our feelings, what we experience every time we look at the photo, and read the letters.
Of course, I would not refuse to see you in the evening, and take a walk (smile). I just hope that when I see you personally. And I can talk.
And now I think that you will agree with me. Love is harmony between a man and a woman. It's trust, and loyalty. Care, and sex. And most importantly, this is what we want. And (maybe I'll say stupidity, please do not swear), I want to believe that it is this feeling, love, that will appear in our hearts. (smile).
Let's not rush. I need to get used to all these "forgotten" emotions that have recently overwhelmed me. And even more so, I do not want to create "empty" dreams. Step by step, day by day, letter after letter. And we will see what will happen next! Do you agree? I think that we can only assume that everything will be fine. And suddenly, you do not like something? (Smile). Or you will meet the one that will forever strike your heart with love, and that will be there (smile). Will not be far away, as I do. I think that I will switch to the "second" plan. And believe me, it will be fine. I'll understand everything. And if this happens, I will not have to be afraid of this, admit. Have agreed.
I say right away, you can not think of me like that. We have men, very few. And believe me, there is simply no choice (smile). But IF this happens to me, then of course I'll tell you the same. Only I beg you not to be offended, I say "directly" without hiding the possible options. I have now no one but you. And I do not even try to find anyone. And I want you to know this.
I was just thinking, what happens if I wake up tomorrow, and I'm 20 years old? (yes sometimes I get such crazy thoughts (smile)) Are I ready to go through this life again without making mistakes? And you know, probably now I can say - no. You know about my past, you know, it was hard for me. But this is my life, my moments. Sad and funny. And this is experience. This is my life.
And I regret only one thing, there were moments, there were moments that I did not appreciate. Which I did not notice. And this is the only thing that I would like to change. Live this life again, but appreciate every moment of this life. Because only time has value.
And what would you do? Has he changed his life? Would you live differently? Or lived this life again, too?
I just sometimes dream. And I think of crazy fantasies (Smile). I also dream that there will be no wars in the world. There was no famine. And there was no pain. I dream that no one dies and everyone was happy. I think that any good person dreams about it. Especially, such as I, who know what is hunger, pain, loneliness. (smile).
When I told you about my life, I had several dreams about that time. When I was left alone. When I was taken to an orphanage. When I first ate. (smile). Probably because I started to remember all this again. It's hard to live, and try hard to hide in the depths of your mind those moments that I do not want to think about. And not always it turns out.
When I'm in big cities, and I see a poor man, or a woman who asks for a trifle, I'll always give a lot of money. Yes, perhaps they will spend on alcohol, or on drugs. But what if they are actually hungry? Do you think I'm doing the right thing? Or not? Or am I very naive to live in big cities? (smile).
You know xxx. I'm still worried about the fact that you do not always understand my letters correctly. And sometimes there are times when I read your letter, I see that you misunderstand the meaning of my words. And this worries me very much. Because one such mistake in translation, maybe you. You do not understand my thoughts and feelings. And so know. That I never want to offend you. True. I will certainly try to improve my language skills. And by that you will not understand me much better (smile). And I hope that I am already making small progress?
What else can I tell you? My days do not have so many new events. Sometimes I live for months as in the movie "Groundhog Day". I'm sure you watched this movie. I note that this film, one of those that I like. And so, if one day we meet, promise that you'll see it with me !? Promise? (smile). But still I have one news. My daughter will probably come to see me for a few days. But this is not yet certain. She needs to pick up some documents. And if she can not, then I'll have to send her all the documents by mail. Or fly to her. I'm just warning you beforehand. It's possible that I'll fly to her, and I can not write to you. I hope that you will not lose me. But as I said, it can not happen soon.

On this I will finish my letter. I ask you to remember that I also think of you. And I even miss your letters. And I'm very glad that we understand each other.
Tomorrow I have a weekend. And I'm thinking of going to the park and taking a walk. Perhaps you can eat ice cream. Do you like ice cream? And maybe I'll stay at home, and clean up (Smile). I have not decided yet. I think I'll tell you about this in the next letter.
I kiss, hug, and say again, I'm glad that you have me.
Maria

In days, I worked very hard. And very tired. And I'm glad that now I have time to relax, relax, read your letter, and write you the answer.
Dear xxx, I hope you're glad to see my letter again. Because when I read your letter, I understood a lot! I realized that I've changed your life, just like you changed mine! I realized that I'm as important to you as you are important to me. That I became a part of you, a part of your life, like you became a part of me, and of my life.
And all these facts give me to understand only one truth. (Smile). The truth is that love has appeared between us. Love, which we dreamed of. About feelings that have not been in our hearts for a long time. Now we with you have new hopes, new dreams. Hopes that our future will no longer be so lonely, that our life will not be the same, "gray" and monotonous! Dreams, that we will be, when we are together. Whenever you are near each other.
Yes, I did not hide such thoughts. What is possible, when we are with you, we will meet. And believe me, I would like this very much. Yes, I want to see you, just sit and talk. To understand you better, more, kiss (Smile). And I understand that you yourself want it, you yourself think about it. But we are far. We are very far apart. And now only letters, connect our hearts, our thoughts, our feelings. And all I can give you, just that, letters.
I made a new photo. I'm sorry that I do not always send you a photo. Sometimes I forget to do it. There are so many thoughts in my head. About you, about what we say, and discuss. About what we feel, and about what we want from our communication in the future. Thoughts, words, dreams. All this causes a lot of joy and positive for me. But also, there is so much in the head that it takes time to think things over. Do you agree with me?
You know what is the most important thing about our communication? We understand each other, and we feel, we want, the same thing. This makes our correspondence special. This allows us to feel as if we have known each other for many years. And thus we are very interested in each other (smile). I already said that now you are a part of my life. And I'm part of yours.
xxx, I really began to think a lot about you. Sometimes dreaming. Sometimes we are together. I have been sitting over my letter for a long time to express to you all my emotions, feelings and thoughts, which are like a "tangled ball" in my head. I know that if you read my letters in Russian, then you would understand a lot more. More than my feelings. More of my emotions. And when I make a translation, I'm sure that you do not get so much of what I would like to tell you. But I know that you understand the essence, you understand the truth of my feelings.
I feel so good when I read your letters! I feel so good when I know that you are. And I start to think that all my feelings for you, this is true love! Maybe I'm wrong. But these emotions, this knock of my heart, "butterflies in the belly", when I read your letter. Can not mean another! Is not it? I think there is no need to have experience, or "sixth" feeling. It's a fact, I fall in love with you.
After the death of my husband, I had no relationship with a man. And all my time was devoted to my daughter. But now she is not, she has a family, will soon become a mother. And now I can and I want to find my happiness, my man. With whom I would like to be always near. And to love him.
I know that maybe I'm not an ideal woman. And I have as many minuses. But I'm ready to give all my love to my beloved man. And in return I ask only for reciprocity.
You know, I'm not rich to give a lot, but I'm the one who is ready to give everything, including my heart, my confidence, my fidelity. And I believe that it is enough to be a happy man, next to me.
You know, I probably do not need to say more (smile). I already already said so much (smile).
I fell in love with you xxx. And then ... I do not even know what to do next (smile).
And I believe that these feelings are mutual!

Gently kiss and hug on the lips
Maria