My precious xxx,

Dearest xxx,I was in travel agency.I have sent you the letter with
details.Did you receive it? How have you been doing these days????I'm
happy to recognise that soon everything will be solved.We will be
together.I'm using the services of travel agency and they offer me
"Full Package of Service (FPS)"-type service package.It means all kind
of expenses are already put in total amount.I paid money the travel
agency.My darling xxx,I want this letter to come to you as soon as
possible to calm you down.Please write to me very soon and tell me
your thoughts and your plans.Honey,there shouldn’t be such bad
thoughts and negative emotions between us.

Your darling,Olga

Dearest xxx,

I have more recently left embassy and at once have decided to write to
you. I write to you the letter and I smile.I'm so glad!If I could,I
would speak with you for a long time.But unfortunately now it is
impossible. But I am confident,that our meeting will take place also
we shall speak in person.xxx,I want to tell to you about the
commission in Moscow. I hope to you it interestingly!!!Tomorrow I
shall already write to you from native city. I shall arrive to Kotlas
most likely tomorrow in the evening.I can probably have the visa. I
worry, you should understand it.I never thought that the commission
will ask such unusual questions.They asked about my sexual life,they
asked about children, about work,about patriotism, about my attitude
to Austria, about my conversance and awareness of events which
happened in the world and in Austria,about my religion and
belief.I have told about all фmy life in detail.I spoke about
verything fairly how it's really. To me have told that my answers are
unexpected and as a rule applicants don't answer such questions so
directly and openly. They haven't got used to hear such answers, but
they said that to hear sincere and truthful answers is much more
pleasant than words which come not from heart and reason. Children
from the orphanages also have made the big impression and rendered the
big influence on the commission. To me have told that I the first lady
who have such support from children - orphans.

Now I should wait the decision I hope, that my visa will be ready
within the next few days. The representative of embassy at once
informs about it to travel agency. After that i shall buy the ticket
in your country. After I shall buy the ticket i shall inform date of
the arrival to you.Now I agree with expression: "Expectation of death
is worse than the death"I can't concentrate on anything. My heart so
worry,I can't work.They have told that the decision will be accepted
in several days.I so worry. I so want that this small dream was come
true.I simply want to see my lovely xxx.I think the God will help
me.I simply want to meet you. I already see us together. I want to
construct with you the ship to float under sails in boundless ocean.I
want to meet with you a dawn and to see off a sundown.We will float on
our ship and our love will illuminate our way. We will look at night
at stars,we'll be pleased in the afternoon to the sun. If there will
be a storm, our love will protect us. If there will be a calm, our
love will be a wind. Our love will be a beacon for us. We will be
floating at ocean of love and oblivion and nothing can separate us.
We'll name our ship - Dream. It will be the small ship, but very
strong.Because we will make our ship from belief, hope and love.It's
impossible to wait, when your dream will fall to you from the sky.It's
necessary to go to the dream. It's necessary to clear and build the
road itself.If in heart there is a belief and dream,if in heart there
is a love and hope,it is necessary to achieve the dream by all means.I
always go to the dream. I don't sit on a place.In my life there were
very few light moments. On this I try to make everything that my
dreams have come true.I understand that now it's only dreams.But these
dreams brighten my life.I hope that yours also.Nothing will keep me to
arrive to you xxx!!!

Sincerely,Olga

Honey xxx,

My visa is available, but I can take away her only after i shall buy
the ticket in your country. Tomorrow or after tomorrow,i shall buy the
ticket in your country but only after to me inform from travel
agency,and will tell, that my documents are completely ready.For
arrival to you.I every day think of our meeting with you.I know how it
is to be thinking about someone all the time,i have felt that as
well.So then I try to keep myself busy doing other things and it
helps.I guess that's how I've been able to get along all this time
without somebody special in my life.I keep myself busy with study,
with friends.I have become used to it now, but not entirely.Some times
i get along doing chores around the house,listening to music,or
helping other people with their problems.It has been so many times
that I wanted to be with someone.So as time went on, little by little
I had to learn how to not feel lonely.But i have also learned that
it's not all that possible. And in the same way I try to avoid getting
hurt, as it has happened to me before. And that too is not all that
possible.On the other side I have seen other peoples mistakes and I
like to think that I wont make the same ones.I try to think of many
possible results,I like to be cautious and to think ahead, but I have
learned that as careful that i may be,there is always something that
can go wrong.

So why should i continue to hold back and not live my life like
others, by going ahead with what my heart says and being as cautious
as possible,right?We are only human and imperfect,all I can try is to
do the best I can, with the person that best fits my way of thinking.
And it would seem so strange that I could find such a person on the
other side of the planet. Imagine if the Internet didn't exist, I
would have never known about you and I would probably continue to live
the same way forever. There is only so much happiness that one can
achieve alone, but I would like to think that I could achieve so much
more with you. It would be wonderful to stop dreaming about it and
make it come true. So at the same time, I also think about what would
be needed to make a relationship work and how to provide for as much
as possible.It's not easy when other pressures are felt in a
relationship.So if at first we should decide to take this beyond what
it has become so far,i think it will be like awaking from a dream and
trying our best to make the dream come true.Like i said before,there
is a lot to talk about, a lot to learn and understand.The feeling of
love is great, but it takes little bit more to have a place to live,
to be healthy and have a family.I know that these are subjects that
can't be decided or solved in a week, but the most important thing
will be addressed,how well we get along.

There is one thing that i know for sure,i like you very much and we
will have a wonderful time together.Your words in every letter have
shown me that we think the same way,so i truly believe that something
great and long lasting will come out of this.I think about you every
day and wish you were near me already.I will just have to be patient
and wait for that moment to come true.

With hugs and tender kisses,Yours Olga

Hi, xxx;) I do not know that occurs, but I had big problems with mine mail. I
have asked to create my friend to me new mail. Honey I ask you answer
me as soon as you to appear possibility. I very much worry. You became
native for me and I do not wish you to lose. I all time think only of
you and about our meetings. I ask you send the previous letter once
again on my new mail. I hope that with you all well and you will
answer me shortly..Once again. I apologise for any inconvenience.Yours affectionately, Olga

Why don't you write to me - during several days already I'm longing of
you letters and you attention!!! Please don't judge me strictly but
I'm waiting for any sign of your attention everyday even checking my
mailbox several times per day... I've started to worry if you I'm
afraid forgot about me and dissapointed in me - but why??? what is the
reason - please give it to me!!!

Hi Darling xxx,

I have good news, very good for me and for you dear! I wanted to call
to you and to explain all by phone.But I'm afraid,that you become
angry on me and will refuse to help me,therefore I have decided to
write to you.Today in the morning I have come to travel agency,to me
informed good news.I have got the visa.Now it is necessary for me to
buy the ticket to you and to go in Moscow for my visa and wait day of
my flight.I'm immensely happy.

I will be able to see you in person!!!Dear I it is very good to speak
in English you to not worry for us.I addressed the air-ticket office
which sells tickets.I asked how,as to me have explained to me it is
necessary to have the ticket to you I would be able to go to
Vienna Intl 7 May, and
how much it would cost. They said that the ticket would cost
896 Euro. I asked them to find a
cheaper ticket, because the price is too high for me. But as it turned
out I would not be able to have a cheaper ticket so quicly, the date
is too early. Tickets must be reserved long beforehand. I asked them
to offer me other variants of the flight. We found the most suitable
one.The flight,is on the 13 May

The ticket costs 448 Euro. I
asked the to reserve the ticket for me. But they refused to do it
having said that they had a lot of clients. They cannot reserve my
ticket without advanced money. I was imploring them. But it did not
work. They said that they would help me with great pleasure but they
couldn't.The rules are so. I was in a panic,I was so disappointed.Then
I asked them is I could give just a part of the money. But they did
not agree again. I asked them for a long time saying that my dearest
xxx is waiting for me.If I asked them a little bit longer I would
burst out of crying.Maybe God heard my prayers,and the service worked
agreed to reserve the ticket on my conditions.But I have too little
time to pay, for the ticket. They said if I did not day the rest of
the ticket price,I would loose the money I'd already given to them. I
was angry, but they explained that it would be very difficult to sell
the ticket for the plane which is flying.They would have to lower the
price.I agreed.
They told me to pay 448 Euro. But it was
too much for me, because I had only 110 Euro.
I asked to wait for me during 11 hours. I went out of the
room. Marina met me at the door. I told her everything. She understood
everything and advised me to pawn our treasures to a pawnshop. xxx,
it was very difficult for me to agree to do it. I did not want to
burden Marina. But at the same time I want to meet you, xxx very
much. We pawned the treasures, I got 80 Euro
and I paid the part of the ticket price 190 Euro.
It was my last money, it was for the plane by which I'm
going to come to you. It was very difficult for me to tell you this
story. I have done all what I could. I have paid for the visa. I have
paid for the part of the ticket. But this was not enough. The money
was not enough. I did not want to burden you. I wanted to come to you
with nobody's help. I thought my money would be enough. But I failed.
Now I feel guilty muself. I did not manage to do all my selffor our
meeting. I thought nothing would prevent me from meeting you. But I
must pay the rest of the money for the ticket It's just 327
Euro.I must pay it till the 13 May . Otherwise I will loose
the money I have paid and i will loose the chance to see you. And our
treasures will be soldby the pawnshop. Now I feel guilty that I could
not do what i promised to come to you with my own money. I always do
what I promise. I feel at ease now, I'm ashamed of asking you to help
me. Unfortunately the clinic did not pay me the money I'd earned. I
really hoped to get this money. It would solve all the pdavidlems. But
I'll get the money from the clinic in a month or two. Because it's
very typical for Russia to hold up the payments of salary. I asked the
clinic to give me my money earlier, but they refused to do it. Now the
clinic does not have the money necessary for me. Our clinic depends on
the budget, it did not get money for a long time. I think it's because
of the financial crisis and terrorist acts in in Northern Ossetia.
Pdavidably I must say to you that I will not be able to meet you
becouse I will not be able to pay the whole sum of money myself. Of
course I realize that I should not ask you to give me the money. But
at the time I cannot just that I will not come to you. I have done too
much to organize our meeting. If I refuse to meet you it will mean
that everything was in voun. It's horrible for me to refuse to come to
you, I have done all what I could. Now I want you to help me and I
think there is nothing horable if I ask you to help me. Of course I
realize that may be you have no feelings to me and may be you're not
interested in our meeting. I understend that the sum of money is too
big. I know it and that's why it's more difficult for me to ask it
from you.But at the same time any person can find himself in my
conditions. And now there is only one thing which I can do. I just
must say that I will never come to you. But I do not want to say so,
because I want to meet you. That's why I must be honest, I need your
help. Of course I understend that I must not do it. But I'm an honest
person. I'm ashaned of asking you to help me, but life is a difficult
thing, everything can happen. Of course it's up to you to decide if
you want to help me or not. It's bad, but not fatal. I will loose my
money. It's bad but not mortal either.310 Euro
which I have paid for the visa and 190 Euro which
I have paid for the ticket are too much for me. But
I'm not sorry for what I have done for our meeting. In fact money is
just paper, our treasures are just metal details.That's why I was the
first who decided to meet each other. But I do not want all my efforts
to be spent in vain. If you really want to meet me, if you can help me
to organize our meeting please send me the money till the morning of
the 13 May . Please forgive me my words. I say so because
I'm in despair.Now when just one step can connect us, I'm afraid.I
need you,I want to be with you,I need you help, believe me,I'm honest
with you.I did not manage to estimate my forces.And all my efforts
spent in vain.I understand that the sum of money is too big for you. I
did not want to ask you.I can do everything myself. My loneliness made
me strong.I had always been living with my own efforts I always relied
on myself.I asked somebody to help me very selcom, but now I ask you
to help me.I will give you all the money back as soon as I'm able.
Maybe I made you offended. But I need you. I do not know if my letter
satisfacted you or disappointed. But I have written you an honest
letter. I'm looking forwarol to you answer. I hope for you .I ask you
to not worry.I send data of my flight.

Moscow (Domodedovo) Vienna (Vienna Intl) 19:05 - 21:00
Direct flight: S7893 2 hours 55 minutes on the way


Your,Olga

Dearest xxx,

xxx I have not received from you the letter. Honey tell with you
all well?? I very much worry about you. Honey in the previous letter I
have sent you the detailed information as I can receive your help. I
have sent you a copy of my passport. Honey tell you has received my
letter?? Tell when you can help me?? What to me to tell to my agent??
I very much worry. I’m writing this letter of support with great will
to be near you and help you and take care and to be useful for
you.xxx I want to take part in your life and to bring real use.I
understand that my warm letters help you mentally but I’m ready and I
have a great will to help and support you and the most important love
you in reality being near you.xxx,I’m going crazy knowing that you
are in need of my love and help but at the same time to be near you
and simply hug you kiss you and cheer you up.It’s very hard to realize
it.That’s why my beloved xxx,I can’t live and think differently
because I feel great importance and responsibility about you. Your
loving,Olga