Hello xxx
I am pleased that you are again with me. I do not know how to tell you
but you bring me a smile. For me, every day began to seem like
something else in this world. You write to me and it helps me. xxx
In my entire life I have lived continuously that it was looking for. I
did not have heat. After the death of my mother I was left all alone
in this world. His father did not when I did not know. My mother died
because of mistakes of doctors. She was hospitalized because of large
abdominal pain. The doctors she was diagnosed with poisoning but it
was appendicitis. When he landed in her doctors simply could not save
her because the infection has gone. The hospital treated very unfairly
in her work and because of this my mom died. It happened when I was 20
years old. I was left alone in this world and I was very lonely. I
always remember her as she was happy. As she smiles and she loved me.
But it all went to her death. I know that she now looks at me and
guards. After my mother died I had a friend who supported me during
these difficult moments. I myself did not understand but we have spun
with the novel. His name was Ivan I think I found my happiness and it
will last forever. But I was wrong. xxx I was 4 months pregnant
when he came home drunk. He started drinking when I got pregnant. He
began to accuse me that I'm a bad girl and that I should abandon the
child. He said that he did not need. I refused to have an abortion and
he started kicking me in the stomach. I lost consciousness and only
came to life in hospital. I lost a child. I suffered a miscarriage. It
was very painful. Tears streamed down my face and I did not want to
live in this world. I could not accept that I lost my child. After the
hospital when I came out I went and wrote a statement for Ivan but it
stopped on the spot. I do not know why. Ivan I do not see and did not
want to see him. xxxSad story?? Forgive me if my letter has
brought you sorrow. I just needed it. Following these events, I had to
do what you and distract yourself. I went to learn to be a nurse. I
felt guilty in front of my mom because I did not know what to help
her. Later I tried to build their relationships with people but I have
not succeeded. Now I do not trust a man here as they are a lot of
drinking. And as soon as I imagine how I lost my child and me as I was
humiliated Ivan did not trust men here. I went on the Internet that
would find a man who will love me and when you do not pick up on my
arm. xxxIs the story of life in May. I understand that it's sad. I
trust you. I'll wait for your letter which will bring me a smile. Your
friend Luidmila