Hi xxx my dearest wife,
good morning and how are you doing? fine, I hope. Well, nice hearing from you once more and I have been there yesterday with all expectation that
you will later be in chat truly but I found you no where, I now understand why it happened so and don't be worried about it, sometimes I also
experience similarly problem with my internet and it drives me very crazy when I cannot spend time with you or hear your sweet sexy and romantic
voice, I was very sad but this morning the joy has returned again and I'm so excited that today we can chat more when you are at wake, I will then later
check frequently online and look out for you to see if you are here...
Babe, my night was good but not so fun without you and I wish that you were with me or I was with you but I still believe and hope that there is going to
be a time soon in our life when our physical separation will no longer be the same....I thought the whole night all about you and my heart beaten was so
fast and beyond my imagination, I had longed for you the whole night long and nothing i could do than to hug my pillows and tears fall off my eyes and
I asked myself for how long will all these be over when we are together? and I answer only God can make a change...well, xxx mt darling, today is
another day and I woke up only with all my thoughts with you and I cannot think so clearly anymore, I don't even know what to do now and I have
thought of means by which I can find a suitable solution to my problem concerning our flight back home because the more I keep staying here, the
closer the date on my passport is fading away and when I spend too much more time here than expected, then my passport together with Lewis will
expire and also I may not be able to afford to pay my hotel fee any longer so I have asked for transfer by my hotel manager with a plea for them to
permit me the chance to relocate to a another different hotel whose price is a bit cheaper and lower than theirs so that I can secure our accommodation
because I wouldn't know where we going to sleep from two days to come from today and that is a big worry to me now...but today, we leaving the hotel
to another small and less affordable one just as i had now informed you about and one thing I'm most fearful of now is the mosquitoes bite which may
generate malaria paracyte and it is very dangerous when either Lewis or I get affected by this sickness in this our helpless situation, because is only
God who will and can speak to get as a favor because I have no one who I can depend on and to hope for any sort of help or so forth and I know this is
the time God wants to see my faith in him and I believe that he is never going to fail me because I always talk to him and he is my creator and he knows
best for me since he is the one in whom I put my trust.
xxx, my darling, I know that neither one of us had in mind that we would meet someone on the Internet and fall in love but it has happened. And
for that, I have no regrets. In fact, it is one of the best things that has ever happened to me in years. For this, and what has happened to us and between
us I have you to thank. ...for almost the past months, you have brought so much joy to me that words can never explain. In the past months, you have
brought so much life back into a lifeless body and we have not even met face to face. For almost the months, I know and realize what it is to LOVE again
and to feel loved. ...I never thought it would last this long, but it has. This is a clear indication that we have so much in common and we are building on
something that is real. I hope we get the chance to see this thing through....there have been hard times, bad times and good times, but with that comes
lonely times. We have reached new and higher grounds with what we have shared in the past months, and I would do it all over again with you if I had
to. I have no regrets because my heart beaten is for you alone and only you is all what I have in this world and that I want to let you know that I think very deeply for you each and every passing seconds which turns into minutes, hour, day and night....I am sending you this to let you know that I have been sent an angel to be with me, and you are that angel because no matter what happens my love for you will never fade, I love you truly xxx and I can assure you that I promise never and ever in my life to hurt you or to cheat on you or lie to you, I want you to see me as real because I'm very open minded person and honest man and may God punish me to death if I do anything to hurt you, xxx my darling, please understand that we have so much to give to each other and I look forward to that day. I believe it is closer now than ever before. It is just that there may be a few more obstacles that we need to clear up, and even amidst all these obstacles, none of them no mater how great it may be, look or present itself before us my love xxx and I think you know what I am talking about. Besides that, we can and I know we will survive....I know things aren't the same as before but no matter what happened in the past we still love each other. We've both done our share of wrong and no one is to blame. We learn from our mistakes and move on. Just because I'm not sure what to expect out of our relationship right now doesn't mean I'm not sure about my love for you. Because, I do love you with all that I have to give and I promise to prove everything to you when we are finally together in each others sweet caring and loving arms as one, for the past weeks we spoke to each other out of anger, fear and frustration but we had forgiven each other and we have forgotten as well immediately and these is something so unique about our love because I know somewhere down the road things will change but for right now we have to be patient. No matter what we did wrong to one another, we've always made it through and that just goes to show my love for you. I just want you to know I love you and always will. Sure I'm lonely, and sometimes I'm overwhelmed with this emptiness in my chest. But, just remember that I love you and everything about you. That's what gets me through every minute of every day that I'm without you. Sweetheart, you don't know what I would give to kiss your lips, feel your touch, or even just to see you. I long to hold you and feel your sweet caress. I have never loved anyone as much as I love you....I'm bold to declare to the whole world, that you make me feel loved, you make me feel safe, but more importantly, you make me feel wanted. We both knew our friendship would grow right from the very first day we spoke. But, neither one of us could begin to imagine the love we both feel, not exploding or thundering into our hearts, but just slowly growing into a beautiful relationship that only you and I can understand. You are my soul mate, my best friend, my inspiration, and my love....I don't care if you forget our first kiss, our first date, just as long as you remember that I love you with every aching bone in my body no matter what. Having your love has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don't care what others say about you and me. All I know is that I love you, and that will never change.
xxx, honestly, while lying in bed yesterday and thinking about the times we've spent together so far, I still wonder if I'm dreaming this magical life with you. Being in love with you brings joy into my life again, when I thought I couldn't feel this way about anyone, anymore. You came into my life suddenly and brought happiness and again made everything so much harder and difficult after you proposed. I know you like me a lot as you always say that I mean everything to you. I am just thankful that you're in my life. The road for us is still long and wide and very, very difficult, but remember I will always be by your side to support you, no matter what...How can I tell you what I'm feeling when sometimes, I don't even understand myself? I wish things were perfectly wonderful between us, But we're going to have to work at it to make them that way. I do believe we have so much to build on… our memories and our love most of all. I may not always understand why we have problems, or exactly how to make our relationship stronger, but I care enough to want us to try to find out because xxx my darling wife, I want you to know that When the world closes in and lies so heavily upon you,
remember - I care.....also, When love seems to only bring you pain, remember - I care but remember, what cannot be, cannot be, but always, remember - I care and Never be afraid to come to me if you have need of the simplest thing! No matter what it is, remember - I care. because we are now one family with love and we are there for each other....the most important thing I've learned is that love is a whole lot more than flowers and candlelight. It's sticking together during those times when you're short on money, patience and confidence. It's sacrificing something you want for something the family needs, and always being willing to listen. We've been through so much together yet we've always emerged closer and stronger than before. I don't know if I could have made it through without you there by my side. You're my lover and my friend. No matter what life holds in store, I can handle it as long as I have you Ramona. I want you to know that I will always stand proud to be you husband and the father of our two beautiful children...And like I promised, I will be here through thick and thin no matter what. I just wanted to let you know how much I really do love and live for you each and every day. Keep that head on those shoulders and keep your chin up because life is great, especially with you....I know it's hard times at the moment and it feels like we have hit rock bottom. But I know we can get through it even though we are far apart we can make it better again. I just want you around I will always be here for you. xxx, we all have faults but if we didn't we wouldn't be human!..Ramona my darling, So many things got in the way of our happiness. Now, after so many weeks being together, I know you love me unconditionally, and it is only because of my own insecurities I did not believe sooner. I hope it is not too late for us to be happy together for the rest of our lives .After our children have grown up and have lives of their own, I want to share that time with you. You are my life my love and my dream. We have made it this far; we can make it to the end of time together. I will start, this day, to show you how much I truly love you and I will not be afraid to show you anymore. I ask you to forgive me for my mistakes as I forgive you for yours. xxx my dearest loving wife, I know times have been rough and things have been said but I hope deep down you know how much you truly mean to me. It's hard not having you around and things in my life have been stressful and I've taken my bad days out on you, but please know that you mean the world to me and I love you with every beat of my heart. I squeeze my bear at night wishing you were there to hold me and kiss me goodnight. Please have faith in us that we can make it through anything, together forever and always.....if you could remember i last wrote to you and I made a statement that life has been very tough with you and me; destiny has given us our sentence leaving you and me at the mercy of our luck. But, why is it so hard to overcome all the problems when what we feel is beyond love? We're lovers; we're friends; we're two love birds, we are husband and a wife and we're soul mates. You and I, under the moonlight, together until the stars don't shine any more, I hope you remembered now because if I may ask xxx, don't you think is very obvious about us you are here and we are together. We have plans, we have dreams, and we have love. Do you really want to leave - to let this go away? We have something special, something I almost messed up once, but would never mess up again. What we have is special; many wish to have what we have, so why give up on something so real?....Babe, we have love, we have hope, we have future and a family, we have trust and let's not destroy them before we give them a chance .... I love you xxx, so don't run because of what you're scared of, just give us a chance, and you will see the love I have for you.
Finally, I wish to continue my dearest loving wife xxx but to end here now since I need to have to go for a walk and also have sometime together with Lewis as we take on our breakfast and I hope we later meet on here because I will be very much more thrilled and excited to once again spend some time together with you later in the chat since yesterday we couldn't meet and until then, i remain in good thoughts and in spirit with you and I will be thinking about you my love....I wish you a very wonderful day and all my love for you. Many greets from Lewis to you and your son...I LOVE YOU!!!!.........
forever yours,
Ernest.