Hi my sweetheart xxx,

Dear xxx, I has read your letter and was on the top of the world
with happiness! I like your romantic reasoning. At you rich
imagination. I like to read such letters. After them I feel myself as
the happy and desired woman.

I want that my documents were ready as soon as possible. I want that
the travel agency has sped up this process. Whether I asked you
approve my act? I have paid the big sum of money for promptness. How
you look at it? For me your answer was important. Because it is
difficult for me for one to make such decisions. I have paid this
money because I want to be with you as soon as possible because my
Holiday. It is not a pity to me what money for the sake of our
meeting. I am in a very good mood today, but when I am reading your
letters again and again I feel even better, I love to receive your
letters, they always bring me much joy and make me happy! I am always
thinking about you and you are in my thoughts. I wish you could be
near me now, but I know that we’ll see each other and we’ll be
together. When I think about all this it feels like I am flying in the
sky!!!

My day was fine and resting today. I slept in today, woke up, then
took a very nice shower, had breakfast and cleaned my house for a
little while. I like when my house is cosy and looks nice and clean.
Today I’ve also went to the movies with my girlfriend, we had a
wonderful time. The movie was a scary one, but I liked it a lot.
Tomorrow I am planning to go to the gym because I want to stay in
shape. I like when my figure is slim and looks fine. So I’ll take care
of my health. Everything is alright with me, now when you’ve appeared
in my life, I feel that the emptiness I had in my heart and soul have
gone away, I know that you think and care about me, and this is the
most important thing for me! I would like to tell you that you’ve
changed my life a lot, and even though you are far away from me, I
know for sure that you are near me in my thoughts, you are always with
me. I want you to feel very comfortable and happy because you are very
important to me! Honey, you know, there are so many stars in the sky,
but yesterday night when I looked at it, I’ve found this one beautiful
star that will lead us and our happiness! All the words I tell you are
from my heart and I’ll never get tired of telling you how much you and
our relationships mean to me!

I am finishing my letter now and I will be looking forward to your
reply!!! With hugs and warm kisses,

Your love Natalya...

Hello my honey xxx,

Dear xxx, I was happy to receive the letter from you. Today my
letter will be short. At me not so it is a lot of time.

I have just left travel agency, and have decided to inform you good
news at once. Me cause to Moscow on interview in embassy. Tomorrow I
should leave to Moscow. It seems to me, that I waited for this moment
the whole eternity. The travel agency has carried out the task earlier
than I thought. It can is connected to that sum of money which I have
paid for acceleration of readiness of documents. Now it is not of
great importance. I go to embassy!!! Probably tomorrow or the day
after tomorrow I can receive documents which are necessary for arrival
in your country. Tomorrow I shall write to you from Internet - cafe of
the city of Moscow. I shall inform you all news which will concern my
trip. After I shall receive documents, I will need to return back to
native city, to collect necessary things and to buy the ticket in your
country. Trip to Moscow costs not cheaply, therefore I wanted to go to
Moscow, to pass interview in embassy and to wait for day of a start.
But in the contract it is told, that in your country I can buy the
ticket only in travel agency which helps me to collect necessary
documents. From superstition I shall not begin to buy the ticket
before reception of documents. Of agency of me convince, that it is
possible to buy the ticket, and, then to pass interview. They have
told to me, that many people do so. But it seems to me wrong.

Dear, I was probable next week can inform you date of my start. I
believe that next week I can take off to you. How you concern to this?
I think that you too will be glad. I shall finish the letter. I shall
go to collect things home. I want, that you have sent me your full
home address, the data on the nearest to you of the airports and phone
number. I shall call to you if there will be urgent questions. I hope
to receive from you the answer which will bring to me encouragement.

Your love Natalya...

Hi my dearest xxx,

I want to tell to you about the commission in Moscow. I hope to you it
interestingly!!! Tomorrow I shall already write to you from native
city. I shall arrive to Kirov most likely tomorrow in the evening. I
can probably have the visa. Because I tried for it much. I worry, you
should understand it. I never thought that the commission will ask
such unusual questions. They asked about my sexual life, they asked
about children, about work, about patriotism, about my attitude to
your country, about my conversance and awareness of events which
happened in the world and in your country, about my religion and
belief. I have told about all my life in detail. I spoke about very
thing fairly how it's really. To me have told that my answers are
unexpected and as a rule applicants don't answer such questions so
directly and openly. They haven't got used to hear such answers, but
they said that to hear sincere and truthful answers is much more
pleasant than words which come not from heart and reason. Now I should
wait the decision. I hope that my visa will be ready within the next
few days. The representative of embassy at once informs about it to
travel agency. After that I shall buy the ticket in your country.
After I shall buy the ticket I shall inform date of the start.

Now I agree with expression: "Expectation of death is worse than the
death" I can't concentrate on anything. My heart so worry, I can't
work. They have told that the decision will be accepted in several
days. I so worry. I so want that this small dream was come true. I
simply want to see my lovely friend. I think the God will help me. I
simply want to meet you. I already see us together and I sink in
dreams. I want to construct with you the ship to float under sails in
boundless ocean. I want to meet with you a dawn and to see off a
sundown. We will float on our ship and our love will illuminate our
way. We will look at night at stars, we'll be pleased in the afternoon
to the sun. If there will be a storm, our love will protect us. If
there will be a calm, our love will be a wind. Our love will be a
beacon for us. We will be floating at ocean of love and oblivion and
nothing can separate us. We'll name our ship - Dream. It will be the
small ship, but very strong. Because we will make our ship from
belief, hope and love. It's impossible to wait, when your dream will
fall to you from the sky. It's necessary to go to the dream. It's
necessary to clear and build the road itself. If in heart there is a
belief and dream, if in heart there is a love and hope, it is
necessary to achieve the dream by all means. I always go to the dream.
I don't sit on a place. In my life there were very few light moments.
On this I try to make everything that my dreams have come true. I
understand that now it's only dreams. But these dreams brighten my
life. I hope that yours also. Nothing will keep me to arrive to you!!!

With tenderness your Natalya.

Hi my dear xxx,

My visa is available, but I can take away her only after I shall
redeem the ticket in your country. Tomorrow or after tomorrow, I shall
buy the ticket in your country but only after to me inform from travel
agency, and will tell, that my documents are completely ready. For
arrival to you.

I every day think of our meeting with you. I know how it is to be
thinking about someone all the time, I have felt that as well. So then
I try to keep myself busy doing other things and it helps. I guess
that's how I've been able to get along all this time without somebody
special in my life. I keep myself busy with study, with friends. I
have become used to it now, but not entirely. Some times I get along
doing chores around the house, listening to music, or helping other
people with their problems. It has been so many times that I wanted to
be with someone. So as time went on, little by little I had to learn
how to not feel lonely. But I have also learned that it's not all that
possible. And in the same way I try to avoid getting hurt, as it has
happened to me before. And that too is not all that possible. On the
other side I have seen other peoples mistakes and I like to think that
I wont make the same ones. I try to think of many possible results, I
like to be cautious and to think ahead, but I have learned that as
careful that I may be, there is always something that can go wrong. So
why should I continue to hold back and not live my life like others,
by going ahead with what my heart says and being as cautious as
possible, right? We are only human and imperfect, all I can try is to
do the best I can, with the person that best fits my way of thinking.
And it would seem so strange that I could find such a person on the
other side of the planet. Imagine if the Internet didn't exist, I
would have never known about you and I would probably continue to live
the same way forever. There is only so much happiness that one can
achieve alone, but I would like to think that I could achieve so much
more with you. It would be wonderful to stop dreaming about it and
make it come true. So at the same time, I also think about what would
be needed to make a relationship work and how to provide for as much
as possible. It's not easy when other pressures are felt in a
relationship. So if at first we should decide to take this beyond what
it has become so far, I think it will be like awaking from a dream and
trying our best to make the dream come true. Like I said before, there
is a lot to talk about, a lot to learn and understand. The feeling of
love is great, but it takes little bit more to have a place to live,
to be healthy and have a family. I know that these are subjects that
can't be decided or solved in a week, but the most important thing
will be addressed, how well we get along.

There is one thing that I know for sure, I like you very much and we
will have a wonderful time together. Your words in every letter have
shown me that we think the same way, so I truly believe that something
great and long lasting will come out of this. I think about you every
day and wish you were near me already. I will just have to be patient
and wait for that moment to come true.

With hugs and tender kisses.
Yours Natalya...

ave you read this message?

Hello my dearest xxx,

I have good news, very well for me and for you! I wanted to call to
you and to explain all by phone. But I am afraid, that you become
angry on me and will refuse to help me, therefore I have decided to
write to you.

Today in the morning I have come to travel agency where to me informed
good news. I have got the visa. Now it is necessary for me to buy the
ticket to you and to go in Moscow behind the visa and to wait day of
my start. I'm immensely happy. I will be able to see you in person!!!
Dear I it is very good to speak in English you to not worry for us. I
addressed the company which sells tickets for plans. I asked them how,
as to me have explained to me it is necessary to have the ticket to
you I would be able to go to Tegel on the September, 15th, and how
much it would cost. They said that the ticket would cost 1173 euro. I
asked them to find a cheaper ticket, because the price is too high for
me. But as it turned out I would not be able to have a cheaper ticket
so quickly, the date is too early. Tickets must be reserved long
beforehand. I asked them to offer me other variants of the flight. We
found the most suitable one. The flight is on September, 18th. The
ticket costs 285 euro I asked the to reserve the ticket for me. But
they refused to do it having said that they had a lot of clients. They
cannot reserve my ticket without advance money. I was imploring them.
But it did not work. They said that they would help me with great
pleasure but they couldn't. The rules are so. I was in a panic, I was
so disappointed. Then I asked them if I could give just a part of the
money. But they did not agree again.

I asked them for a long time saying that my fiance xxx is waiting
for me. If I asked them a little bit longer I would burst out of
crying. Maybe God heard my prayers, and the service worked agreed to
reserve the ticket on my conditions. But I have too little time to
pay, for the ticket. They said if I did not day the rest of the ticket
price, I would loose the money I'd already given to them. I was angry,
but they explained that it would be very difficult to sell the ticket
for the plane which is flying. They would have to lower the price. I
agreed. They told me to pay 813 euro. But it was too much for me,
because I had only 225 euro. I asked to wait for me during 12 hours. I
went out of the room. Marina met me at the door. I told her
everything. She understood everything and advised me to pawn our
treasures to a pawnshop. It was very difficult for me to agree to do
it. I did not want to burden Marina. But at the same time I want to
meet you. We pawned the treasures, I got 90 euro and I paid the part
of the ticket price 315 euro. It was my last money, it was for the
plane by which I'm going to come to you. It was very difficult for me
to tell you this story. I have done all what I could. I have paid for
the visa. I have paid for the part of the ticket. But this was not
enough. The money was not enough. I did not want to burden you. I
wanted to come to you with nobody's help. I thought my money would be
enough. But I failed. Now I feel guilty myself. I did not manage to do
all myself for our meeting. I thought nothing would prevent me from
meeting you. But I must pay the rest of the money for the ticket It's
just 498 euro. I must pay it till the September, 18th. Otherwise I
will loose the money I have paid and i will loose the chance to see
you. And our treasures will be sold by the pawnshop. Now I feel guilty
that I could not do what i promised to come to you with my own money.
I always do what I promise. I feel at ease now, I'm ashamed of asking
you to help me. Unfortunately the clinic did not pay me the money I'd
earned. I really hoped to get this money. But I'll get the money from
the clinic in a month or two. Because it's very typical for Russia to
hold up the payments of salary. I asked the clinic to give me my money
earlier, but they refused to do it. Now the clinic does not have the
money necessary for me. Our clinic depends on the budget, it did not
get money for a longtime. I think it's because of the financial crisis
and terrorist acts. I must say to you that I will not be able to meet
you because I will not be able to pay the whole sum of money myself.

Of course I realize that I should not ask you to give me the money.
But at the time I cannot just that I will not come to you. I have done
too much to organize our meeting. If I refuse to meet you it will mean
that everything was in vain. It's terrible for me to refuse to come to
you, I have done all what I could. Now I want you to help me and I
think there is nothing horrible if I ask you to help me. Of course I
realize that may be you have no feelings to me and may be you're not
interested in our meeting. I understand that the sum of money is too
big. I know it and that's why it's more difficult for me to ask it
from you. But at the same time any person can find himself in my
conditions. And now there is only one thing which I can do. I just
must say that I will never come to you. But I do not want to say so,
because I want to meet you. That's why I must be honest, I need your
help. Of course I understand that I must not do it. But I'm an honest
person. I'm ashamed of asking you to help me, but life is a difficult
thing, everything can happen. Of course it's up to you to decide if
you want to help me or not. It's bad, but not fatal. I will loose my
money. It's bad but not mortal either. 390 euro which I have paid for
the visa and 315 euro which I have paid for the ticket are too much
for me. But I'm not sorry for what I have done for our meeting. In
fact money is just paper, our treasures are just metal details. That's
why I was the first who decided to meet each other. But I do not want
all my efforts to be spent in vain. If you really want to meet me, if
you can help me to organize our meeting please send me the money till
the morning of the September, 18th. Please forgive me my words. I say
so because I'm in despair. Now when just one step can connect us, I'm
afraid. I need you, I want to be with you, I need you help, believe
me, I'm honest with you. I did not manage to estimate my forces. And
all my efforts spent in vain. I understand that the sum of money is
too big for you. I did not want to ask you. I can do everything
myself. My loneliness made me strong. I had always been living with my
own efforts I always relied on myself. I asked somebody to help me
very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. I will give you all the
money back as soon as I'm able. Maybe I made you offended. But I need
you. I do not know if my letter you disappointed. But I have written
you an honest letter. I'm looking forward to you answer. I hope for
you. I ask you to not worry. I send data of my flight:

Moscow, Sheremetyevo International → Berlin, Tegel 18.09.2017

Reis: 427
Boeing 737-300
Class: economy
Flight: 18.09.2017 04:50
Moscow Sheremetyevo International (E)
Arrivals: 18.09.2017 08:40
Berlin
Tegel
→ Transplant →
Moscow, Sheremetyevo International → Riga, Riga 18.09.2017
Reis: 427
Boeing 737-300
Class: economy
Flight: 18.09.2017 04:50
Moscow Sheremetyevo International (E)
Arrivals: 18.09.2017 06:35
Riga Riga
Riga, Riga → Berlin, Tegel 18.09.2017
Reis: 211
Boeing 737-500
Class: economy
Flight: 18.09.2017 08:00
Riga Riga
Arrivals: 18.09.2017 08:40
Berlin Tegel

Natalya.

Hello my darling xxx,

Darling xxx, today I have read your letter. I have understood your
thoughts. I wish to explain you some things. You should understand,
that I have passed through much that my visa has been approved. I have
overcome many barriers. I have achieved visa approval. Now there was
one step. I need to pay 498 euro and our meeting will be real.

I understand that you speak that wish to arrive in Russia. I do not
think that it is good idea. I think that it to do it is not necessary,
because we with you so will spend many money to have to pay in 2 times
more. And then back and I with you together - count the, my darling,
what big expenses for tickets. But if I go itself to you, it in 2
times will be cheaper! And here when we with you will start to live
together, I will get a job, we together will earn and we will arrive
together on a visit to my girlfriends in Russia!!!

You should understand me. I have made all that was in my forces. I as
tried to go to the friends. But all my attempts to find money were
vain. Only my girlfriend Marina has agreed to sell the gold for the
sake of our meeting. And I am immensely grateful to it for it. I know,
that she very much worries about me, and our relations. Now all hope
only on you my love xxx. To me any more to whom to address for the
help. I know, you never will leave me. I trust you. I know, you the
real man. And you will find a way to help me. There was only 1
variant, it is your help. You understand me?

I when was not outside of Russia. I wished to meet you, wished to
develop our relations, our love, wished to study culture, traditions
which exist in your country, I wished to visit historical places,
locks. You understand me? I hope, that you understand. I hope, that
you will help. All hope only on you my love xxx. I hope, that you
will find a way to help our meeting. If you help, we can meet each
other. I promise, that you will not regret that helped our meeting. I
will make all that we were happy. I promise you it!!!!!!

I hope, that soon we will meet and with laughter we will recollect our last letters. I wait your answer.

Yours Natalya.

Have you read this message?

Hello my xxx,

How is the weather at you? I hope that at you all well and you had
remarkable time. You should understand, that our destiny depends on
you. xxx, I very much want to you on a visit. I really want to
develop our relations, our love. You mean for me much. If you can help
our meeting, you never will regret about it. Please, do not do to me
painfully. All depends on you. All depends on your help. You should
know, that you can change our destiny. It depends on you. You
understand? 498 euro is so much money what can solve destiny of two
people??? Or money for you means more than our love, our relations. I
hope, that you estimate our relations. I hope, that you be able make
our meeting a reality.

At us in a city young couples walk on park. They embrace, kiss. I too
very much would like to feel your kisses, and your caresses. My
girlfriend Marina asked me that I sent you the big and ardent regards,
and also the strongest embraces. Accept and from me my most sincere
wishes, my most sincere and passionate air kisses, and also my hottest
and ardent embraces. You would like to feel my passionate kisses, and
my passionate embraces from my loving heart? I dream of feeling your
passionate kisses and hot embraces. And now my time has come to an
end, and it is time to me to leave. I leave with thoughts on you, my
love. Remember that I love you, my charm. I will wait for your
letters, my love.

Yours Natalya.

Hello my dear xxx,

My favourite xxxm very happy to write to you today. If you
want. Certainly you can arrive to me on a visit in Russia. I will be
very glad to see you.

Darling xxx, at me a small problem. I wish to ask your help. Today I
wished to receive the salary from my work. I have gone for the work to
receive my wages. But the bookkeeper has told to me, I cannot receive
the payment of work as there was no financing from the municipal
budget and payments will not be. Such practice is extended in Russia.
When detain the salary without any concrete explanations, but with
promises to make payment. I very much was upset. You also have such
pauses of a payment? I always thought, that I the independent woman
who always solves problems independently.

I feel very awkwardly, but I should ask your help. My favourite, I
really hope, that you can understand my situation correctly, and
accept it with understanding of my awkward position. What do you
think? You can help me? The most favourite xxx, can send you to me
315 euro? I do not have any money to live. There is no finance what to
pay apartment and to buy meal. As I do not have money what to pay the
Internet of cafe and to write you the letter. I really hope for your
understanding.

Natalya …