Hello my dearest XXXXX! Merry Christmas!
It is a great pleasure to get letter from you. They always inspire me
and make my day brighter. Thank you for finding time to write to me.
As far as you know it's my first experience in corresponding with man
with the help of Global net. I thought that internet is only for fun
or for getting some interesting (educational) information. And now I
understand that I was mistaken. It seems to me that I've got dependent
of your letters. Don't think that i'm trying to exaggerate the
significance of our correspondence. I just really like you and would
be happy to be closer to you.
Hope, you slept well and was ok. How was your day? Was it full of
positive emotions or stressful one? Mine was rather stressful. The day
became the real disaster from its very beginning. Now I am fagged out.
OK, forget!
The nice thing i've had today is a conversation with my parents. Of
course, they know about my desire to find the second part of mine, but
they hadn't shared my idea to find my soulmate from foreign country.
Frankly speaking I was a little bit skeptical, I was not sure that it
could be possible. And when I found you and our communication started
, I tried to share with them my impressions in order to change their
mind. Anyway, they will support me whatever I choose. They wish just
me be happy and, of course, if I feel happy, they will be happy too.
You know, it is important to feel parents' support. It gives a kind of
inspiration. Oh! They ask me to say you hello from them. So, HELLO!!!
Also please accept Dymka's "Hello!"
Now, let me tell me a very unpleasant thing. I don't know how you can
react on this, but just try to understand me. When I started this
correspondence I was rather sure that I will cope with all my everyday
difficulties and will be able to afford the translation service. Now
my life is not very rosy because of some events which have happened
recently. I need to rent a new working place, because my place is
given by the salon owner to another person, that is run by his niece.
And I was informed to rent working place (that is costlier) or just
pack my staff and go out of there. How much I hate this "relatives" in
business. It's not honest regarding to other people! Sorry for
expressing my emotion so rudely, but I feel so...I am frustrated.
Frankly speaking, I do not know what to do. I should admit that I want
to continue our correspondence, but I hate borrowing the funds. This
correspondence is very important to me and I feel so sorry that I
cannot fulfill my and your dreams. I hate complaining and I do not
want you to think that I am here just for fun. I hope that my letters
were rather clear and from the very beginning I told you that I was
here not to play games. Just sometimes the consequences are stronger
than people. I am a woman and I think I am not so strong but
ineffective and weak. I feel so sad that I won’t be able to talk to
you. I have used to you for that short period of time and now I feel
great sadness inside. Is it possible to change something? Are you
interested in me? I do not know for sure. I want to believe that
together we will find the way out. I really do not want to lose the
contact with you. Is it possible? Of course, I am not insisting. But
if we are both interested in the development of our relationship, let
us fight for us. I am sorry to write to you such a sad letter. I
really did my best in order this situation not to happen. But I
failed. Maybe I am too faint. Please, do not leave me.
Hope to hear you again!
Send you my kisses and hugs.
Your Alina