Here is one more letter from you, John!!!!
I'm really pleased. And a little bit sad. Why? You are far away. You are not mine. You are in my life, but at the same time, you are in a different world. We are separated.
Thanks for your letter! I was very glad to get it!
I also think that it's great that we are able to dream together! But sometimes we need to do something to be able to make our dreams come true. Don't you think so?
I like your idea about meeting you in your country!
I will try to find out in details about it and then we'll be able to plan something, right?
Whose fault is it? Who knows, maybe, that creature, who is called "creator"? I don't want to offend you right now. Perhaps, in your world people believe in God much more and very often they don't want to do something by themselves, but here....
We don't like to rely on the destiny. Our God tells us, that he can help us only during our actions. Maybe, it's a little bit rude, but at the same time, it's too staight to be untruth... Right?
Ok, maybe, you are not agree with me, we are really too far away from each other yet to have similar points of view, to think in the same way, to.... To do a lot of things, but... At the same time, we are really closed. I can feel you, sometimes... And I run to the internet cafe, when I know that there is one more letter from you. How do I know it? Who knows, it's just my heart, who tells me to go there... Even now. I don't know what to tell you about. I'm just a little bit upset and mysterious... There are so many couples at the streets and they seem to love each other. Maybe, not to love, but at least, they really like each other and they enjoy their time. I don't understand some of them - I don't like to lie and to waste my time with the person, who doesn't appreciate me, but they.... Maybe, John, they are right in some way. They just enjoy their time.
And about me... I have your mail-address in my list of friends and I have your letters in my mind. It's enough for me and not enough... Are you confused? Don't worry, me too!
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I just know, that nothing can stand. Everything should have its continuation. It was some point, where we met each other... It was our own road, when we were trying to know each other and... Right now we should have some end. And it doesn't mean, that we should end our relations. That's not true. We should do something to make each other pleased and again... enjoy our time. The question is so simple and so obvious: How to do that?
I really want to be closer to you and to know you better and to meet you at last, but in reality! Do you understand me?
I want to see, those eyes, which, could look at my photos, and said I was beautiful.
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I want to hear, that voice, who could spell my name once and my heart would stop... for a minute, that the next moment it could go faster.
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I want to see that man, who came into my world so unexpectedly and could occupy all my thought. Are you a real hero? Or just one more strange? Hope, John, you'll accept the first variant... Don't want to be disappointed... Life is too short.
Hope, you'll think about that at least....
Take care. Margo.